Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Your biggest challenge isn't someone else;
Monday, June 29, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
bodysuit and American apparel boyshorts.
This girl literally looks good in everything. Even when she doesn't
I had such a good shoot on Friday. I just love my crew so much. They
are make me so happy. I'm the luckist.
amanda's baby shower. I'm carrying 10 pounds of presents and stuff but
somehow decide it's a great idea to walk through the gay pride parade
down 5th ave. Baby loved it, as s/he kicked like mad as the music
pumped through the air. I, on the otherhand, not so much.
But the sun is filling the air with it's rays and I'm smiling as it
shines on my back. Wherever you, hopefully it's just as beauitful and
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
'...and then the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful then the risk it took to blossom." -Anais Nin
This quote was sent to me from ellie. It sent shivers up and down my body.
Ellie is a magical being I met in Tanzania and fell instantly attracted to, for her spirit and love are both so raw and real. We have been through very similar experiences in life, especially in the "love" department. Our talks on those long dirt roads, while holding the babies, sitting in the back of the van on safari, while walking through the crazy town - those talks meant the world to me and gave me the power and hope that I still carry with me today.
I remember breaking down at the end of one particularly difficult work day and Ellie just saying "oh sweetie, I know." Those words felt like the world was hugging me. Like the universe was going to suddenly be kind to me. Like Ellie was brought to me as an angel with a simple message of love. Someone really did know. And at that moment I didn't need a hundred words to be said to me. I just needed to hear that someone got it.
She always gets it too.
That's why I want her to know that I'm here and I get it. Really truly, I get it. And I know. More than you can imagine.
Love you E.
An Uncertain Future
As a self-exiled Iranian, my take is that Iranian youth are fed up with their oppressive lives under the current regime. This is not an ideological war, like it was for those who demonstrated during the Islamic revolution of 1979, it is simply a loud and clear cry for basic human rights: freedom, democracy and justice.
In their peaceful protests, this new generation, most of whom were born after 1979, are not seeking to uproot the current regime, instead they are calling for reform. But for the government, any type of reform is a threat. So in a desperate measure — shamelessly, and as the world watches — Iran commits atrocities on its own people.
No one can predict how this crisis will be resolved. Every day, I talk to my family in Iran and my Iranian friends here in the United States. We’re all left with a profound sense of uncertainty; some are pessimistic about the future. If the opposition is defeated, the consequences will be horrific, and the crackdown of the past few days will continue in greater magnitude.The silver lining — if there’s any — is that Iranians inside and outside of Iran have been united and mobilized. If this energy is suppressed, will we ever find the strength and hope to come back together as a nation to fight for democracy again?
So here goes:
1. I feel kicks 24/7 and have felt them since I was just over 3 months along. These aren't "flutters" like other people speak of, these are hard core penalty kicks, Zidane style. And I love each one more and more.
2. When I go for ultrasounds the techs that do the tests always laugh and tell me it's the most active baby they've ever seen.
3. My last appointment with my mom by my side, the little babe did everything possible to avoid being face on to the camera. Literally hands in front of the face, neck stretched back and face turned to the right, all to avoid a full frontal photograph.
4. It has Max's upper lip. Both my mom and I saw it at the same time and nearly lost our shit laughing. But also has his long legs and a long neck. According to the tech "it's going to be a very tall one!"
5. When I play music or walk into a room where music is on, I feel endless movement and kicks, especially on my right side. some favorite songs are: Good morning by John Legend (this is played first thing in the morning), Puttin on the Ritz by Taco, Valerie by Amy Winehouse and Mark Ronson, Love Lockdown by Kanye, Dont bring me down by Electric Light Orchestra and anything by Madonna.
6. Despite what everyone thinks, I'm not against drugs to ease the pain at the birth.
7. Being pregnant is the best thing I've ever experienced in my life, super simple and way easier than an hour with my trainer, yet mixing the two is torture. But going for a run is still part of my regime and feels amazing.
8. I think it's a boy 90% of the time, but there are days that I wake up certain it's a girl. Within a few hours I'm back to believing it's a boy. But I don't want to find out till birth.
9. I cannot wait for photo shoots around the world with him/her by my side and eventually Anthony to bring it scuba diving while I'm working.
10. I kinda wish it was an elephant baby because I want it in my belly for as long as possible - a 2 year gestation period would be so much better than 9 months.
Got to catch up with Ellen over the most absurd amount of food last night. Ellen has enough compassion, talent and generosity in her teeny body for the whole world. Stories bring her to tears just as fast as they bring her to crack up laughing. She feels what you feel and shows you she's there with these eyes that look so young and innocent but in reality are so aware and caring.
The only thing that bothered me about seeing her is how she's suddenly traded her trademark Nike's and skinny jeans in for a shift dress and Gucci heels. Super cute but unacceptable on a daily basis. I don't pick my friends based off of their outfits, but Ellen, sweetheart, reconsider before our friendship becomes solely email based.xo
don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end.
Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making
the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious
&lsqauo; Glida Runner via ursofuckinspecial, via chrisabigail
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
‘when I picked up the phone I realized that out of the billions of people on the planet, you were the one I wanted to speak to the most. It was like the deepest part of me took control and said what it felt, unafraid of embarrassment or rejection or any of that other stuff that normally leaves me paralyzed with fear. I didn’t think. I just was.’
— Mike Gayle - My Legendary Girlfriend
damn, this is amazing.
I wonder how many people in the world have someone they feel this way about? Someone that makes them feel totally at ease...I used to have friends that I'd turn to in different situations, you know someone I'd call if work was a nightmare, someone else I'd call if I felt like rambling, someone else I'd call when I wanted to share great news...but now, well now I still have that, but I more or less have one person that I always want to call. To share everything. One person that encapsulates all of what I think. One person that gets me in every single life situation that never judges me, who gets me even when I'm speaking out of my ass. And that, that safe, loved feeling I have from this person, keeps me from ever feeling embarrassed or alone.
If you don't have that, find it. If you can't find it, I'm here.
If 26 year old Neda Agha-Soltan's cruel and unnecessary death has tortured
you, please read below on how you can help try to put a stop to the Iranian
governments threats, beatings and imprisonments to protesters.
The Iranian people's courage in the face of brutal repression has been
But the situation is getting worse. The Iranian regime has begun a violent
crackdown against the protesters&lsqauo;including hundreds of arrests and a number
Now, it's crucial that the Iranian regime knows that the world is watching
and that they must stop their violent repression of peaceful dissent.
So our friends at Avaaz&lsqauo;a global MoveOn-type organization&lsqauo;have
asked people all over the world to stand with the Iranian protesters. Avaaz
is aiming for 1 million signatures worldwide and is going to deliver this
message of solidarity to other governments, concentrating on the countries
with the most influence over Iran's regime. Can you add your name?
A clear message from people all over the world can help put pressure on the
Iranian regime to stop the violence. Other Muslim countries in the region
and key trading partners like China and Turkey have been mostly silent since
the election, but a worldwide outpouring of support can convince them to
Involvement by the American government could be used by the Iranian regime
as an excuse to crack down further. But if we, as individuals, join with
folks around the world, we can help create a global outcry. The petition
will be delivered directly to the Organisation of the Islamic Conference,
the Non-Aligned Movement, the E.U., and the U.N. to show them that the world
wants them to act.
Iranians have shown that regular people, using new technologies like Twitter
and Facebook, can have a profound impact on world affairs. As they face
enormous danger to stand up for democracy and freedom of speech, we should
stand with them. Can you add your voice to the chorus of people calling for
an end to the violence?
Also, for constant updates to the Iranian situation, check out:
http://thelede.blogs.nytimes.com/ a blog by journalists within Iran, hosted
by the New York Times.
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On my (long) walk home from dinner I spotted this ice cream spilled heart on the ground. I must have looked like a really nutty pregnant person as I snapped photos of this ice cream on the ground. Someone actually said to me "I thought the cravings were to eat it."
When I pointed out that it was in the shape of a heart he called all his friends over and they went crazy over it.
See, dick, stop and open your eyes to what someone else is seeing and maybe the world will be a better place.
I took this last night at the top of the new LES hotel, where, I must add, I had an amazing few hours with some amazing people.
If you haven't been there yet, go.
The roof bar (which really isn't the roof but rather the 7th floor) boasts the most beautiful views in all directions.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
when i was in Tanzania i fell in love with this song. it was sung day and night and each time I heard it my heart would melt a little bit more.
Maliaka means angel in Swahili, such a beautiful word. I always thought I'd name my child after this song, especially since it represents such an amazing time/place for me. ignore the video, just listen to the song.