when you look at this photo what do you think? cause I think, I'm jealous. I think oh how I wish that was me. I think what a lovely place, oh how wonderful the smells and sights and people must be...

Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.

Beautiful day

Magical day.

mouth hearts

this is heaven

Chalk heart

my newest obsession

I've been loving gold lately but I saw this silver leaf cube end table and fell in lust. It feels like the exact piece I need in my make-believe house. You know, the one you are all invited over to. Yeah, that one. Thinking I may need this silver bocce ball set to go with it. In the backyard of course....

see it?

Wow, this image is fucking good. from here.

How is it people don't see breathtaking beauty in all bits of life? Aren't we all born with the ability to find it in every step we take? I watch through my son's eyes at how he takes the world in and really becomes transfixed on objects and fascinations with the smallest of things. We all have it within us. To be kind. To find kindness. To see beauty. In blackness, in light, even in suffering. Or was I born a romantic who just imagines things to be more than they are?

when I win the lotto....

I'm purchasing this stunning Mercedes mahogany and leather chair. Isn't it insane?

iconic

Tony Ward is my new obsession. The iconic model/photographer has me wondering who his parents are and how on earth did he get so perfectly manly?

I'd really like to know something about his heart one of these days...perhaps it may happen. I'm on the hunt for this gorgeous man....all for my heartbeat project, of course.

Bear

bridges

broken bridges and men. ahh.

mmmm....

How beautiful is this Fresh Air Perfume Oil? I found it on etsy and am in love. Can't you just imagine how amazing it would smell just by looking at the bottle?

I think I need it.

if this was my house...

...I'd have you all over for long weekends, delicious dinners, dancing and playing. I'd let you sleep late and treat you to breakfast in bed. I'd play your favorite music and cook your favorite meals. I'd wear my hair down and be barefoot all day with the biggest smile on my face.

where would you like to wake up tomorrow?

"I'd like to wake up in His arms. With time on our side and cool air around us. I often go to him in my dreams instead this time I want to actually wake up to him. Where we used to be when things were easy and my mind was still fresh. When we were both honest about how much we loved each other because that was all that mattered most in the world. Us. He and I. Me and he. But we all know time can pull you apart and youth can make you do stupid things and people can influence you in ways you wish you were never influenced. So waking up with him may not ever happen again. Sadly, I supposed I will just have to stick with my dreams. If you are reading this pojkvan I ask for one last morning in your arms - no one ever has to know."

-flickvan

That was the year, my twenty-eight, when I was discovering that not all of the promises would be kept, that some things are in fact irrevocable and that it had counted after all, every evasion and every procrastination, every word, all of it.

Joan Didion, Goodbye to All That

found here

beautiful day

A pretty picture for your afternoon....

hoping everyone is having a wonderful day so far. I'm overly excited for this long weekend to arrive so I can finally get my hands on my little niece and nephew. I cannot even imagine the absurdity of Mr Luca B with his cousins, crawling around squealing and loving life.

wish I was wearing this today

I just saw some looks from the sass & Bide Resort 2010 lookbook here. I am dying over these two particular looks and wish I was walking around life in either of them at this very moment.

Major!!

http://fashiongonerogue.com/olga-estupinan-dennis-golonka-untitled-project/

Very excited about this!!

Good morning

Wishing everyone a very happy Thursday. Almost Friday. Which means
almost the weekend.

Sunset

Love, NYC

Rumi

Quietness
Inside this new love, die.
Your way begins on the other side.
Take an axe to the prison wall. Escape.
Walk out like someone suddenly born into color. Do it now.
You're covered with a thick cloud.
Slide out the side. Be quiet.
Quietness is the surest sign that you've died.
Your old life was frantic running from silence.
The spechless new moon comes out now.

Paco

Little paco, or is it Fidel? Makes his way around Brooklyn looking
like this. Don't you just want to eat him up? How damn cute is he?
The best part is he has a twin brother. Paco and Fidel Cubria. Love
them. Boys!!

Apps

Hipstamatic rules. I blindly took these photos. Literally closed my
eyes and just snapped. How pretty does this app make the world look
like?

where would you like to wake up tomorrow?

"Guatemala. In a hut with high ceilings, a giant canopy bed with open windows and a tray with the coldest local beer, fresh eggs with toast and jam. The surf outside my door, my boyfriend coming in from his morning swim and absolutely nothing to do all day long. Lounging and reading and sex. Hot fun sex all day."

-Amanda from Washington

I'm so hungry

I cannot wait to eat this for dinner tonight...

Ingredients

• 2 English cucumbers, peeled • ¼ c. tarragon vinegar • ¼ c. rice vinegar • ¼ c. white vinegar • 2 T white mustard seeds • 2 T hyssop powder (or finely grated zest of 1 lime) • 2 T fennel seeds • 2 T cumin seeds • 6 sprigs dill, pull additional for garnish • 6 sprigs cilantro • 13 oz. edamame beans • 7 T extra-virgin olive oil • Salt and freshly ground white pepper • 12 baby fennel bulbs • 1 small pineapple • 2 T unsalted butter • 1 T freshly squeezed lemon juice • 2 fennel bulbs, trimmed and cut into paper-thin slices (preferably with a mandoline) • Vegetable oil • 1 2-lb. skinless salmon loin

Directions

Cut each cucumber into strips that are 1½ inches long, ¼ inch wide, and ¼ inch thick, and put the strips in a nonreactive, heatproof bowl. In a saucepan, stir together 4 cups of water, the vinegars, mustard seeds, hyssop powder, fennel and cumin seeds, 6 sprigs of dill, and the cilantro. Bring the liquid to a boil, remove from heat, and pour it over the cucumbers. Once the mixture has cooled, cover and chill for at least 24 hours, up to 1 week.

Bring small pot of salted water to a boil, add the beans, and boil until tender, for 6 to 8 minutes. Drain, and run under cold water. Peel the beans, and discard the pods. In a blender, puree the beans with 1/3 cup water and 2 tablespoons of olive oil. The puree should have the consistency of loose mashed potatoes; if it’s too thick, add a little more water. Season with salt and pepper, and set aside.

Bring medium pot of salted water to a boil. Add the baby fennel, and cook for 13 to 15 minutes, until tender. Drain, run under cold water, and dry well with paper towels. Toss the fennel bulbs in a bowl with 2 tablespoons of olive oil, season with salt and pepper, and set aside.

Peel, quarter, and core the pineapple. Cut each quarter into ¼-inch-thick pieces. Melt the butter in a large nonstick skillet over medium-high heat. Add the pineapple, and cook for 7 to 8 minutes, until both sides are caramelized. Remove from heat, and set aside.

In a bowl, whisk the lemon juice with the remaining 3 tablespoons of olive oil; season with salt and pepper. Add the fennel slices, and toss.

For the salmon, prepare a very hot outdoor grill or stovetop grill pan. Brush the grill with vegetable oil, and season the salmon with salt and pepper. Grill for 6 minutes on each side (for medium-rare salmon). Transfer the salmon to a large platter, and garnish with dill. Serve everything family style—the salmon should be hot; the salad, room temperature. Serves 4.

inspiration

oh sienna. love you. wish I had your body.

and to everyone else, I hope this helped you decide to go with the healthier version of whatever you were going to eat for lunch.

sometimes I do like fall

I just saw this boot here and died. Yes, I died. I love love love it. I even love it more than the Alexander Wang bootie it's copied from. Can you believe it's only $130 from here?

You can be certain if you hang out with me come fall, I will be wearing them.

grateful

I'm feeling a wee emotional today. I put baby to sleep last night, cleaned, did a billion sit-ups and then wrote and wrote and wrote. I had to stop myself at one point because I was getting cramps in my hands and my emotions were somewhat schizophrenic - laughing out loud, sobbing crying, dazed and confused - all within moments of one anther.

I went into Luca's room at one point just to listen to him breath. I was crying of peace and happiness. With tears streaming down my face I reached down to touch his little belly and feel his heart beat. Which is when I nearly lost my shit. As I felt around for him in the darkness I finally found his little body - legs straight up in the air against the side of the crib, one arm tossed over his eyes, the other hand down his pants, down his diaper. That kid loves his manliness parts. Tears were replaced by laughter. All I wanted in that moment was to wake him up, see him smile, snuggle into his little neck and play. Ahhh, I am so grateful.

I went to sleep feeling so thankful for the life I've lived, the life I'm living.

I hope you all have those moments, where it all comes together and feels safe and sweet and simple. Where you just know life truly does work out if you just play it all out.

the epitome of summer

I came across Paperwhites Photography, a team of wildly talented wedding photographers. Yes, wedding photographers. I am completely awed by the images.

Can you believe these are pictures of someone's wedding? Aren't they stunning?

If I were to ever tie the knot, I'd dream of these pictures being part of my celebration album. They just epitomize summer. Summer is love. Wedding love. Summer love. Love.

'Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway'

Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson

a place to write

I'm writing a book. It's been something that I've dreamt of doing my whole life but never had the right inspiration or story line. But it came to me and now I cannot stop writing. Actually, not true, I do stop because I'm lacking a little thing called time. I have no time. Not to complain but how can I find more time? Does anyone sell it?

Until then, I'd like this room. I think it would be a perfect spot to take to my keyboard and write write write.

serious inspiration

How insanely fierce is Kourtney Kardashian's post-baby body? I plan on looking at this photo every time I consider eating a morsel of crap.

what I wish I was wearing...

Oh Halston, thank you for making me so happy. I must must must get all three of these dresses. My life wont be complete until then.

my heartbeat project

check out my heartbeat blog. My most recent post has me still in shock. It's been a few days since I sat down and chatted with Chris, but ever since then he's been on my mind. I've been able to meet so many amazing people through this project. Each day as I talk with my subjects, whether it's for 5 minutes or an hour, I am in awe. People are wonderful.

The stories of the lives, the souls of the faces I'm photographing, are so meaningful to my existence. I know it sounds dramatic, but I mean it.

I'm excited to one day share this year in an even greater form.

Thank you all, again, for allowing me into your heart.

happppppy birthday audy!!!!!!

it's princess audrey's birthday, and since there isn't a niece in the world I love more, I'm going to gush like a maniac for a bit.

This lovely little being is the epitome of girly grace. She wakes up in her princess dress and immediately grabs her headband, before doing anything else. She sings and dances and laughs at the world around her, treating those around her with joy and light as she makes her way through the day.

Talk to her on the phone or on skype and you'll be laughing in a moment. She's often "too busy to talk" cause 3 year olds have a lot going on. But don't let it make you sad, she always has enough time to give you a giant smile or to tell her papa sir how he's a "river to his people"

If you haven't met her, you should. Your day will be better. Funnier. More beautiful.

So hard to believe this gorgeous creature is already 3! And a(n amazing) big sister!

Happy birthday princess.

So excited to see you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There's a pile of pink just waiting for you in NY!